I am also not ready to tell you the gory details of my whole story, not directly nor explicitly, but something is pressing me to do this. And I can leave it up to all of you to read or not read and judge or not judge and form your own opinions.
I haven’t lied to all of you. I haven’t pretended to be someone I am not. I have, however, refrained from directing everyone to a crucial piece of my past and my history. I’ve had my reasons.
And if you have any kind of know how (even very limited) with WordPress, you’ve probably already run across this. I know one of you has, and you’re helping me to make this choice right now.
I am still every bit the woman I wrote of in my personal page, Always. I have perfected the ability to stand fixedly against and stare down any assailant, external or internal. And my foundation has no cracks, and my degree of self-control is unmatched.
But I wasn’t that woman completely, at least for a brief episode of time. Most every moment of most every day of my life now, I can look back on it as a blip. As something that happened to me, not something that defines me.
However I would be lying outright to everyone, myself included, if I denied that I have moments still where it causes me to wobble some. I don’t crack or lose control, but I do have to breathe a little more deeply.
“Who do we become without knowing where we started from?” ~ Dixie Chicks
I know. I know without a doubt that the woman I am now is the woman I was two or six or fifteen or thirty-plus years ago. I just want for all of you to have all of the relevant facts.
So ta-da, the blog I kept on WordPress before: Shock And Awe
(I will have Ruby fix all my glitches, my current technological situation is not ideal. I honestly think it bothers me more than anyone else.)
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