I am having frequent anxiety attacks.
An entirely new thing to me. I even blogged about it last year. Or maybe it was a comment on someone else’s blog? I don’t remember. But the sentiment was one of gratitude for never having experienced those crippling moments.
My therapist says it actually means I’m improving. Go figure. That instead of dissociating and withdrawing, like I used to do, now I’m staying in the real world. And staying in the real world means dealing with the problem at hand. By going into anxiety episodes.
But I am at a loss here. I don’t know how to deal with that. I don’t have the coping mechanisms. I know them. In theory. Somewhat in practice too, I guess, since my daughter had severe anxiety episodes while growing up. I helped her and she learned how to cope. She doesn’t even need medication anymore.
Bottom line, I never had to apply them to me!
I will learn how, of course. Eventually I will, I have no doubt. I will get a handle on this.
But right now, it’s hard.
The end result is the same. Stuff doesn’t get done.
But instead of being blissfully oblivious of it like I used to, I now get this pain in my stomach like someone is punching me. There’s sweating and more generalized pain as well. Tremors too. Nausea. You know what I’m talking about.
We’ll see how it goes. I hope I don’t have to add yet another medication but I’ll do what it takes because I certainly don’t like the way I feel.
In the mean time, feel free to offer advice. I’d be interested in knowing what has worked for you. maybe it will work for me as well. It’s worth a try, right?
So far, having the cats around is good. Hearing them purr, stroking their soft fur and feeling their warmth helps a lot. Talking to my best friend too, of course. I am incredibly lucky I have that.
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