When I first found this blog I though, “what a cool idea!”
And then, the more I read, the more I thought, I wish I were invited to contribute to this blog. I really like what they’re doing here.
Well, lo and behold, here I am!
I’ve decided to start by telling you a bit about me so you all know where I’m coming from.
I’ve been dealing with chronic pain since I was 11. In retrospect, I’d say I’ve also dealing with depression since I was a little child. However, I only started to understand the extent and scope of my mental problems until well into my 30′s. Way after I moved to Canada, when I was lucky to find a doctor brave enough to undertake my case and only after having a big melt down while pursuing a PhD in Cellular and Molecular Medicine.
As things stand right now, I have ADD, MDD, PTSD, and maybe DID. Oh, and a higher than average IQ. I’m what some people call gifted. But that’s also a mental illness, right?
Fun, eh? Somehow, it looks and feels a lot better when I type only the acronyms instead of the whole name.
And those are only my Mental Health-related diagnosis. I also have a few other physical diagnosis that include hypothyroidism and Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I talk about those on my personal blog so I’m not going to discuss them here. Or at least only in relationship with my depression, when they decompensate me.
I first realized I had a mental illness when I was in med school (oh yes, I forgot to mention, I have an MD degree). How did that escape my husband -who is also a doctor, and my many treating doctors, I don’t know. I’m very good at hiding things, I guess. I have outstanding defence mechanisms, too. That, I also realized at med school, while taking psychobiology, psychopathology and psychiatry.
Now, I am not a psychiatrist. While I did excel in my psychiatry year, I am just a normal, regular MD. So most of what I’ll be talking about here will be from a patient point of view. Maybe spiced up with an educated guess here and there and some bits I learned from my patients too. But that’s about it. I don’t have any formal training in psychotherapy.
It’s been a long, winding, dark, treacherous road to get to where I am now. From being willing to die before admitting I had a mental illness to being completely open about it and even becoming an advocate of ending the stigma associated with mental illness.
That’s me. A completely crazy person who lacks most of the adulthood filters and still sees the world like a child.
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